One of those weeks (actually several)

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I love this cartoon series! This guy writes the same children's books that I would :)

While funny it's scary how true to life it feels.

This week has been one of those weeks where no matter what I do, I feel like something is going to come out of nowhere and take me out. Ever have one of those? Days where no matter how well things are going or how hard you're trying, something is going to suddenly happen that ruins everything.
Unfortunately, these are the moments where my cynical nature can really take hold and send me in to a downward spiral. These are the weeks where I just want to go live in a cave somewhere and take the bypass away from all of my perceived problems.
In the midst of the last couple of weeks my mind kept coming back to a statement in the book of Hebrews.
For our high priest is able to understand our weaknesses. When he lived on earth, he was tempted in every way that we are, but he did not sin. Hebrews 4:15 NCV
I don't know when exactly Jesus came to a full understanding of how the plan was supposed to work. Did He know early on, at His baptism, or some later time in His ministry? When did He know what it was going to look like? When did he realize that the cross was looming and none of His closest earthly friends would be there for Him?
Surely if anyone had a reason to get depressed and run away it was Him. At the very least I know that it was on His mind in the garden when He asked His Father to come up with another way if it was possible.
That portion of His prayer though is overshadowed by His prayer on my (and our) behalf. Asking His Father to take care of us, to bring us to unity and to continue on in the Kingdom work.
I guess that is what I have to keep coming back to. If I really believe Scripture and really strive to live by it, I have to realize that these things that I deal with are not really about me in the end. I want it to be about me and my mind keeps reminding me that it is about me, but my heart keeps pointing me towards His work, towards His care and blessings.
I admit that that realization doesn't completely take all of the struggle away but it at least puts it into perspective and gives me a purpose and a hope. Every day is another step forward into reminding myself that it's not about me. Oh and honestly it really is nice to follow someone that you can never look at and say "you have no idea what I am going through." :)

Oh and by the way I am working on the pictures. We're having some web difficulty. Check back soon as I may just put them up on Flickr.